Hot sugars get away with murder.


So…randomly I got a random email from my first SD. The one who was to be in the city once a month but fell of the earth? The one who is so gorgeous I should be paying him to see me? Yeah. That one.

He was in town and wanted to see me. I was in the middle of a move, sick with an ear infection, and worried my little car was dying but ventured down anyway! Boy am I glad I did…..

He had a suite at a very chic hotel, which included two rooms put together. One room had a ballet bar….I knew as soon as I saw it, I would never another chance to have sex on a ballet bar in my life.

It was everything I had hoped for.

I very much enjoy his company but he started arguing with his wife shortly after, making our time somewhat awkward. He pulled out his laptop to work at which I promptly closed it and stole his attention.

“You told me you wanted my company to keep you from sitting in your room working until 2am. Is that still true?”
“Yes…you’re right. Thank you.”

He told me he throws himself in to work when he’s stressed, like we all do. He continued to argue with his wife via text, going radio silent mid conversation a few times. We got in to a discussion about marriage and he was amazed that I didn’t desire it in the least, saying I was wise beyond my years as he twirled my hair in between  his fingers.

He hasn’t emailed me since the meet and I am reminded again why he annoys me : he is back and forth with communication. I don’t want to talk to him every day but update me on the travel plans so I know when to make time for you!

It’s probably best he visits so infrequently, his personality is intoxicating and I would probably get caught up. He us just too gorgeous, funny, smart, and pays me so well…..


Delayed Recap


Phew, been so busy with moving and everything that I haven’t been able to update!

About two weeks ago Andrew and I went on our football trip. I realized five minutes into the trip that I am a much bigger fan of traveling alone. Maybe its because I’ve done that more than traveled with someone but the constant complaining of “why are we not at the gate yet/why are we not taking off/oh look they made friends, how weird.” was so grating on my nerves I had trouble staying sane. I thanked the stars I brought my headphones and quickly watched greys anatomy as he tried to sleep during the flight. This is where stuff really goes a little odd and its probably 99.9% my fault.

We get to the hotel, absolutely GORGEOUS. I didn’t think I liked a room more…until I saw my first SD again spur of the moment recently but thats for another time… and I changed in to PJs as he turned the TV on. We cuddled and watched sports center, laughing at the commentators really rude jokes. Finally he turned it off, kissed me goodnight, and kept cuddling. Normal stuff, right?

Suddenly, he pulled away and seemed somewhat offended. I asked what was wrong and he says “I’m just going to let you sleep, I don’t want to bother you.” Hmmm…what? Again, I have trouble with people who need constant affirmation that the choices they make are ok to make. I told him he was fine, come back to my side and we can go to sleep. Nope. I’m not going to tell you something is ok twice, I can’t really grasp the whole concept of that. It is a fault of my own and I’m trying to change that but its hard. Fault of independent personality I guess.

The next morning he seemed upset with me when I crawled out of bed to go to the gym. I went to the gym and worked out as I overlooked the gorgeous city, taking in every aspect of the situation I am in right now. It seems so far from my 2 year ago reality, its pretty shocking. Afterwards I went back to the room and, unsurprisingly, he was still in bed. Another thing we differ on…I’m a very “Up and at em!” type in the morning, finding laying in bed for hours on end ( when not having sex ) to drive me somewhat stir crazy. Maybe its my ADD, maybe its my complete obvious (at this point) lack of interest. I find it unamusing to sit in bed and have him talk about how funny it is to watch videos of angry spouses smashing their significant others xbox/playstation/pc. I guess I am boring because that seriously hurts my heart! Those poor consoles, not to mention how much they cost! 

Having an ex that smashed a $1200 custom PC I had just built probably makes it hit home a little more.

I asked if he was mad at me and he insisted he wasnt but couldn’t pull himself away from the phone. That was a huge red flag…he was back on SA, I thought to myself. I jumped in the shower as we readied to hit some tailgates and head to the football game. He was distant all morning, making me more annoyed with him but as soon as we got to the stadium, he obviously wanted it to be known that he was with me as more and more people increasingly started talking to me about football. Was pretty funny and a little confidence boosting to be honest! We stopped at the pro shop, got me two shirts ( yesss ❤ ) and enjoyed the rest of the day at the stadium. My team won the game, making me trip home that much sweeter….woohoo!!! I LOVE FOOTBALL!!!

On the flight home we sat in different seats and I found myself NOT upset with that prospect. He was a few rows away and I enjoyed the time to nap a little bit as well as flash the football game plays back in my head. When we got back to my car he kissed me and told me to drive safe…..

…..wait a minute buddy. Pause. This is where I complain that the boots he assured me he would have for me for the game were not there, the "4 or 5 things" he bought for me for the game did not exist, he has still not given me my ezpass so my drive is at least 20 minutes longer than it should be, and now he was trying to skip out on giving me my allowance that was 7 days past due? Nope! I stopped that right then and there! Followed him to a bank and he comes back, $50 short, telling me "It wouldn't let me take out the 50 so I'll give it to you for next weekends allowance." Uhhhh what? In my mind, take out the even number and just grant me the $10 extra. What the hell? No. Just no. Now that I'm typing all of this, I'm getting more annoyed and more convinced that he is no longer worth my saturday nights/sunday mornings. He does have really cute cats though…..

Things are also a little murky on what he expects. From day one he said to me "I dont want to have sex with you, you could pay me a million dollars and I wouldn't do it." but then links me to some BDSM spanking chairs and a remote control vibrator? Like, what? You don't want to have sex with me but you want to do that kind of stuff? He keeps saying sex is going to be for his wife and he would rather save it for her but I told him straight up he will not be chaining me down and spanking me. That takes a whole level of trust that I have not even begun to build with him yet. He insists he just wants to be touchy feely with me but what the hell? Nothing in return? This is so annoying, I can't handle grey areas!


I really need to do a post about my trip with Andrew and the reappearance of my first SD but I’m in the middle of a move with a nasty cold so…

…Am I the only one who finds it funny when these people who make so much money continuously spell “confident” incorrectly? Hah.


It’s only 9am and Andrew is already annoyed with me. Lol.

I can’t sleep in, it’s not in my nature! I’m more likely to lazy around if there is a mimosa in my hand but if not? Gym is calling me.

Constant reassurance/annoyance.

So. Here’s the thing. I’m a straight shooter, very forward, open, and am actually pretty awful at hiding when I am displeased.

This is why I am terrified to make this phone call. Andrew feels we are not on the same page……like he has felt every other day since this started. I have a tendency to accidentally bully those types outside of sugar because they are just so….UNSURE. I’ve never been in the shoes of being unsure and insecure so openly and it has always struck me as weak. I am hoping I am able to hide my displeasure with this constant reassurance because he has shown no problem giving me whatever I need, which is nice! I have 5 gifts waiting for me when I arrive at his house for our weekend trip.

If this sugar falls through and when it ends, I think I may clock out of the sugar bowl for awhile. Thinking about a lot on the drives to/from Andrews, always interesting thoughts.

That and he hasn’t given me my god damn ezpass yet! Those tolls are getting annoying! C’mon son!


The planned trip may not happen now, with me going by myself! Andrew has had some family stuff go down and he needs to fly out of town to handle it. He is pressing me to go to the football game anyway and honestly I have no problem doing that. I would enjoy it if he went with me but I have friends there so I can do either way.

Eberytjings paid for, why wouldn’t I go?! I could even be a sugar momma for a day and pick up a delicious guy to go to the game with me since I have his extra ticket. Either way, I’m going!

Let’s backtrack though….

I saw him this passed Saturday after my awesome spa day he treated me to. I followed directions to wear “strappy things” aka a g string. After dinner and a movie, we got in to bed and while he was very cuddly and touchy, it was 2am and I was exhausted. We spooned and I quickly passed out, to his disappointment apparently. Sorry but you can’t keep me up till 2 and expect a coherent bed buddy! I’m an old soul, in bed by 10 unless fueled by alcohol or video games!

My internal alarm clock sounded at 730am and I tried to quietly play on my phone since I know he likes to sleep in. That didn’t work! He was up within minutes and trying to push me back in to slumber. Nope. Wasn’t happening, I was up for the day. I stayed for an hour and a half just chatting and finally hopped up to leave. A few kisses and I was dressed and out the door, ready to take on NFL Sunday!

I expected my allowance sent to my account that day or the day after but I still haven’t received it…I understand family stuff but I’m moving Friday and need all I can get :(! If it doesn’t get sent today it won’t clear until Monday….Grrrrrr….


Don’t get me wrong, I’m very much enjoying this but how’s he gonna keep this up?

He booked our trip next weekend, I’m a bit bummed with the flight times since I won’t get to see a lot of the city but hey! Sitting 7 rows off the football field surely cures that! So excited. He got flowers and candies delivered to my work yesterday, he said he wants everyone to know how spoiled I am. Uh oh, questions ahoy at work.

I see him again tonight, after my spa day which I’m about to run to now. Of course my period(which he calls “Shark Week” lmfao) is due any minute, putting the brakes on some intimacy. I have one friend who loves sex during this week and I’m dying for it so towards the end of the week might be a little treat!

I hope tonight goes as smoothly as the first one, it’s my first overnight with him so we’ll see. I’ve noticed he needs reassuring every few days about our arrangement which confuses me a bit. He obviously wants exclusivity and he’s getting that….for now. Sugar exclusivity, anyway. I’m always open for something outside of sugar and just like what happened with Sir Bod A Lot, I would drop sugar in a heart beat for something like that. Amazing sex, amazing connection, and just amazing time period. But…hey…. I need money for this move!